Saturday, October 9, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
My Big Transition
Ok so the last month of my life has had more transitions than I ever want to experience in one month ever again, ha. Thats not a bad thing either, it was a very good transition.
So backing up....I have spent the last 4 years of my life in Masters Commission at Harvest Time in Fort Smith. I spent my first 3 years as a student and about the next year and half as staff. I was fully involved in Harvest Time as well as the 24-7 craziness of MCRemix. I have never learned and grew so much in my life as I did in those years. I had only been saved for a year when I stepped into MCRemix. I had planned on only doing one year of MC but did I know that God has other plans in store for me. :) Nope, but He did. Anyways, about a month ago I had a stirring up in my heart stronger than ever that it was time for me to move on. I'd had this feeling off and on for about a year but assumed it was just my own flesh wanting to be independent. I say that because I was extremely blessed being in MC. All of my housing and food was provided, so for most that is something to be totally pumped about, but for me....it almost drove me crazy! ha-ha it sounds so weird I know, but I am a VERY VERY independent person. I get a weird thrill and sense of security out of being able to provide for myself in every aspect of my life. Maybe it was because I got everything handed to me growing up and I realized as i got older that i took it for granted and so now I just prefer to do everything on my own. I really don't know? ha. So anyways I got the strong sense of feeling stronger than ever that I was ready to move on. I juggled the thoughts around in my head for about a week, then one Friday morning I just broke and decided today was the day I was moving on. Made a few phone calls and spent the morning talking things over with my parents. By 2pm that day I was stepping out of my role at MCRemix as well as my positions in leadership through 180Remix. I was terrified at first, thinking I was making a rational decision and would wake up the next morning thinking "What have I done?". But by 6pm that evening I was moved completely out of my apartment and crashing at my parents house till I figured out what to do next.
I spent the weekend still trying to sort my thoughts and honestly stressing myself to death because financially I had NOT prepared at all to move back out on my own. I lived on my own before MCRemix and at 25 you just don't move back in with your parents and due to my independent nature I wasn't about to do that or try and find someone to crash with for awhile. I was determined to get my own place first thing Monday morning. And that is exactly what I did. :) Monday rolled around and I called around and found a 1 bedroom apartment open for immediate move-in in Van Buren, which was like 1.5 minutes from my work so I went and checked it out hoping it would all work out. Sure enough it did and by 5PM that day I had spent over $700 in like a 2 hour span!!! Ha-ha I almost forgot how much it cost to move out and pay deposits on everything!!!!! But Gods favor was definitely upon me. I spent the next 2 weeks working my tail off and trying to get settled in what I know call "HOME". :)
Needless to say my fear of making a mistake didn't last long. I have never felt so at peace with such a big decision in my life. I am very, very happy and God has blessed me beyond believe in what little time I have stepped out and followed what truly turned out to be His will for my life.
I recently found a church in Alma (Southside Baptist) that from the moment I walked in the door felt like a place I could call home. It is a small growing church in a area that has such a need for God. I attended their College Age Sunday school class which is taught by the Alma Football coach. His wife and himself were one of the biggest reasons this church made me feel so welcomed and ready to jump on board with this ministry. The worship was AMAZING and the Holy Spirit was so strong I seriously wanted to just go crazy happy!!!! :) Ha but being my first time there, I didn't! The message was awesome and the overall experience was something I just wanted to get my hands in. I never thought i'd be one to really like smaller churchs but I LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!! I am a people person and relationships are the beat of my heart and im so excited to see what kind of relationships and impact through God I will be able to make in yet another ministry in this area.
All this to say God is a God of trust. When I had fear of letting go of the Ministry I was so involved in and really the only ministry I have ever known, to follow something God put in my heart and had no idea where it would lead to. He led me to a place that I never thought i'd go, and I love it. May this be somewhat of an encouragement to you when you to will be moved from one ministry to another. God did SO much in me and taught me more than I thought i'd ever know or understand during my 6 years at MCRemix/Harvest Time and now I am being able to take all I learned and give it in another ministry in need. That is our whole purpose as Christians, is to build us up and send us out. I was sent out and it is the best decision i've ever made!
Mark 16:15
And then he told them, "Go into all the world and preach the Good News to everyone."(......all the world OR all of Arkansas. :)
the whole earth is full of his glory." 4 At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.
5 "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."
6 Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. 7 With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."
8 Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"
So backing up....I have spent the last 4 years of my life in Masters Commission at Harvest Time in Fort Smith. I spent my first 3 years as a student and about the next year and half as staff. I was fully involved in Harvest Time as well as the 24-7 craziness of MCRemix. I have never learned and grew so much in my life as I did in those years. I had only been saved for a year when I stepped into MCRemix. I had planned on only doing one year of MC but did I know that God has other plans in store for me. :) Nope, but He did. Anyways, about a month ago I had a stirring up in my heart stronger than ever that it was time for me to move on. I'd had this feeling off and on for about a year but assumed it was just my own flesh wanting to be independent. I say that because I was extremely blessed being in MC. All of my housing and food was provided, so for most that is something to be totally pumped about, but for me....it almost drove me crazy! ha-ha it sounds so weird I know, but I am a VERY VERY independent person. I get a weird thrill and sense of security out of being able to provide for myself in every aspect of my life. Maybe it was because I got everything handed to me growing up and I realized as i got older that i took it for granted and so now I just prefer to do everything on my own. I really don't know? ha. So anyways I got the strong sense of feeling stronger than ever that I was ready to move on. I juggled the thoughts around in my head for about a week, then one Friday morning I just broke and decided today was the day I was moving on. Made a few phone calls and spent the morning talking things over with my parents. By 2pm that day I was stepping out of my role at MCRemix as well as my positions in leadership through 180Remix. I was terrified at first, thinking I was making a rational decision and would wake up the next morning thinking "What have I done?". But by 6pm that evening I was moved completely out of my apartment and crashing at my parents house till I figured out what to do next.
I spent the weekend still trying to sort my thoughts and honestly stressing myself to death because financially I had NOT prepared at all to move back out on my own. I lived on my own before MCRemix and at 25 you just don't move back in with your parents and due to my independent nature I wasn't about to do that or try and find someone to crash with for awhile. I was determined to get my own place first thing Monday morning. And that is exactly what I did. :) Monday rolled around and I called around and found a 1 bedroom apartment open for immediate move-in in Van Buren, which was like 1.5 minutes from my work so I went and checked it out hoping it would all work out. Sure enough it did and by 5PM that day I had spent over $700 in like a 2 hour span!!! Ha-ha I almost forgot how much it cost to move out and pay deposits on everything!!!!! But Gods favor was definitely upon me. I spent the next 2 weeks working my tail off and trying to get settled in what I know call "HOME". :)
Needless to say my fear of making a mistake didn't last long. I have never felt so at peace with such a big decision in my life. I am very, very happy and God has blessed me beyond believe in what little time I have stepped out and followed what truly turned out to be His will for my life.
I recently found a church in Alma (Southside Baptist) that from the moment I walked in the door felt like a place I could call home. It is a small growing church in a area that has such a need for God. I attended their College Age Sunday school class which is taught by the Alma Football coach. His wife and himself were one of the biggest reasons this church made me feel so welcomed and ready to jump on board with this ministry. The worship was AMAZING and the Holy Spirit was so strong I seriously wanted to just go crazy happy!!!! :) Ha but being my first time there, I didn't! The message was awesome and the overall experience was something I just wanted to get my hands in. I never thought i'd be one to really like smaller churchs but I LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!! I am a people person and relationships are the beat of my heart and im so excited to see what kind of relationships and impact through God I will be able to make in yet another ministry in this area.
All this to say God is a God of trust. When I had fear of letting go of the Ministry I was so involved in and really the only ministry I have ever known, to follow something God put in my heart and had no idea where it would lead to. He led me to a place that I never thought i'd go, and I love it. May this be somewhat of an encouragement to you when you to will be moved from one ministry to another. God did SO much in me and taught me more than I thought i'd ever know or understand during my 6 years at MCRemix/Harvest Time and now I am being able to take all I learned and give it in another ministry in need. That is our whole purpose as Christians, is to build us up and send us out. I was sent out and it is the best decision i've ever made!
Mark 16:15
And then he told them, "Go into all the world and preach the Good News to everyone."(......all the world OR all of Arkansas. :)
Isaiah 6:1-8 (New International Version)- Isaiah's Commission
1 In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple.2 Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. 3 And they were calling to one another:
"Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty;the whole earth is full of his glory." 4 At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.
5 "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."
6 Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. 7 With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."
8 Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"
Monday, October 4, 2010
Cecilia is.......
Twenty-five. Lives in Arkansas. Loves God. Spontaneous. Loves summer. Outgoing. Loves to cook. Laughs a lot. Hates Twitter. Takes a lot of pictures. Makes a lot of To-Do Lists. Ambitious. Determined. Refuses to ignore text (bc it drives me CRAZY when others do). Vegan. Owns 50+ Pairs of Jeans :). Loves my job. Workout addict. Thinks Netflix is AMAZING. Gentle Spirit. Loves Cupcakes (a Lot). Funny. One of 6 Siblings. Loves SUV's. Daddys Girl. Captivated. 2 Nieces and 3 Nephews. Loves Target. Wants a puppy. Cries at all weddings. Loves Razorback Football, but wants my kids to play baseball. Loves Country music. And thinks everything happens for a reason! :)
Saturday, October 2, 2010
5 Favorite Words!!!
I'm not one to have a HUGE vocabulary but if you know me at all you will learn that I'm very open to learning new words. Ha, Very often will you here the phrase "I don't know what that word means!" or "I'm not gonna lie I had to look that up!" :) Because well there are A LOT of words that I have no idea what they mean and I'm not one to just pretend I know nor am I one to be to good to simply stop and ask "What does that mean?" So I want to share my 5 favorite words and why.........
#1 Father- I love the word father for 2 reasons.....1. First and foremost because my whole heart and soul belong to THE Father! aka God :) I just recently began referring to God as THE Father. It was a little different at first but think about it He is, but isn't your father or my father, or even a father but He is THE Father to all creation weather they accept it or not that is still who He is. My life is what it is to this day and am I even alive because of The Father. He is my best friend, my healer, my protector, my beloved, and the best thing in my whole life. The one thing I'll forever have when all else fails. 2. Because I am a Daddy's girl to the CORE!!! My dad is the smartest man I know! He has been one of the most support people in my life and I never give him enough credit for it. He is the one man who has never took my desire to give enormous amounts of love to people for granted or lightly. I make every smart decision in life with intentions to please my dad more than I do to please myself.
#2 BELOVED- "I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine" S Of S 6:3........If I was to ever get a tattoo I would get the word "Beloved" on the underside of my left wrist. I love being called beloved so much that I use to wonder if I could get my husband to call me beloved?? ha nerdy I know but I then decided that I kinda liked to leave it as Gods name for me. When I journal I always sign the ends with "Love- Your Beloved" :) And recent true story, I have this 2 sided picture frame about my stove and in one side is a picture of myself from like High School i think? and on the other is one of those name cards with a bible verse on it. Well last night I go into the kitchen at like 2 am and for some weird reason look up and glance at this double frame I have had for YEARS (like 10) and i bout lost it!!!! At the top it has my name and right below it in parentheses it says "Beloved"!!!!! I thought I was gonna to die happy at that very moment!!! :) It totally made my weekend.
#3 Family- I LOVE Family!!!! I was unfortunate growing up that I never had this tight close bonded family. Yes i had select few ties with people in and out of life but not as tight as I one day hope my life will be. My Parents split when I was 4 and life between them has been awful ever since, yes to this day! I've learned that some things are out of my control and I can only learn from the things I see. One of the biggest reason I can hardly wait to get married and have beautiful little babies is so that I can take the amazing things I learned in life and pass them on and discard of the ones that weren't so great. I do not frown upon anything in my life or the ways it was done I only learn from them. Which I've learned LOTS!!! Ha I am the last of 6 brothers and sister to marry and have kids and I'm not even the youngest but because I want to do it so right and perfect and in Gods timing I will happily be the last to get married and have a child of my own. (Plus my siblings have enough babies for me to keep now, if only they all didn't live in different states :( .....) I guess I just realize I'm the last one to move off out of state also..........
#4 Southern- Ok this one is a given due to my blog!!!! :) I Love love love love being a southern girl!! I tend to loose my southern accent but sometimes I really get lost in my words and they all come rolling out!!! haha ICE is my worst word i believe I say it like EYES, haha! But yah its ok! I LOVE country music SOOO much and I think id have a lot of bad days without it. Now not the country music about getting drunk and drinkin beer (ok some I like just bc its country) but for the most part I love it because its about family, God and Love!!! :) My 3 favorite things!!!!! :) I Love having cookouts and just spending time with people i love. I love opening doors and windows and allowing the amazing weather inside.
#5 Captivated- 1st I just love the way it sounds, don't know why? But I do. :) If i had to describe myself or my life in one word it would be Captivated. I've been captivated by God from some of the hardest most heart breaking times i think one person should ever have to go through. I would not change a bit of it though!!!!! In the last year I've had to share my testimony in front over 1,000 people (i think) and I have never in my life realized how much of a impact my past can be and how it can encourage someone elses life. I have realized that so many young girls have come into my life that are going through the exact same things i did and i love being able to say i REALLY know what your going through and more than that i love being able to say "And this is how WE fix it....." :) Ahhh gives me chills thinking about the impact!!!! LML!
#1 Father- I love the word father for 2 reasons.....1. First and foremost because my whole heart and soul belong to THE Father! aka God :) I just recently began referring to God as THE Father. It was a little different at first but think about it He is, but isn't your father or my father, or even a father but He is THE Father to all creation weather they accept it or not that is still who He is. My life is what it is to this day and am I even alive because of The Father. He is my best friend, my healer, my protector, my beloved, and the best thing in my whole life. The one thing I'll forever have when all else fails. 2. Because I am a Daddy's girl to the CORE!!! My dad is the smartest man I know! He has been one of the most support people in my life and I never give him enough credit for it. He is the one man who has never took my desire to give enormous amounts of love to people for granted or lightly. I make every smart decision in life with intentions to please my dad more than I do to please myself.
#2 BELOVED- "I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine" S Of S 6:3........If I was to ever get a tattoo I would get the word "Beloved" on the underside of my left wrist. I love being called beloved so much that I use to wonder if I could get my husband to call me beloved?? ha nerdy I know but I then decided that I kinda liked to leave it as Gods name for me. When I journal I always sign the ends with "Love- Your Beloved" :) And recent true story, I have this 2 sided picture frame about my stove and in one side is a picture of myself from like High School i think? and on the other is one of those name cards with a bible verse on it. Well last night I go into the kitchen at like 2 am and for some weird reason look up and glance at this double frame I have had for YEARS (like 10) and i bout lost it!!!! At the top it has my name and right below it in parentheses it says "Beloved"!!!!! I thought I was gonna to die happy at that very moment!!! :) It totally made my weekend.
#3 Family- I LOVE Family!!!! I was unfortunate growing up that I never had this tight close bonded family. Yes i had select few ties with people in and out of life but not as tight as I one day hope my life will be. My Parents split when I was 4 and life between them has been awful ever since, yes to this day! I've learned that some things are out of my control and I can only learn from the things I see. One of the biggest reason I can hardly wait to get married and have beautiful little babies is so that I can take the amazing things I learned in life and pass them on and discard of the ones that weren't so great. I do not frown upon anything in my life or the ways it was done I only learn from them. Which I've learned LOTS!!! Ha I am the last of 6 brothers and sister to marry and have kids and I'm not even the youngest but because I want to do it so right and perfect and in Gods timing I will happily be the last to get married and have a child of my own. (Plus my siblings have enough babies for me to keep now, if only they all didn't live in different states :( .....) I guess I just realize I'm the last one to move off out of state also..........
#4 Southern- Ok this one is a given due to my blog!!!! :) I Love love love love being a southern girl!! I tend to loose my southern accent but sometimes I really get lost in my words and they all come rolling out!!! haha ICE is my worst word i believe I say it like EYES, haha! But yah its ok! I LOVE country music SOOO much and I think id have a lot of bad days without it. Now not the country music about getting drunk and drinkin beer (ok some I like just bc its country) but for the most part I love it because its about family, God and Love!!! :) My 3 favorite things!!!!! :) I Love having cookouts and just spending time with people i love. I love opening doors and windows and allowing the amazing weather inside.
Friday, October 1, 2010
I Would SO do something like this!!
So Friends be on your toes because i will be spending the next few years trying
to decide who would be the most fun at this to be in my wedding party!!! ;)
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