“When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.” – Alexander Graham Bell
Happy Happy Happy Wednesday Everyone!!! Can I start by saying that I am so HAPPY its finally starting to roll into fall/Thanksgiving/Cold/Christmas Season!!!!! I love this time of year more than any other season. Its jam packed one after the other with family, friends, lots of happy moments and in some cases lots of cuddling because its so cold out! :)
I have not blogged in almost 2 weeks I think due to the fact that my mind was else where for about a week and then spent the next week trying to get back on track. But don't worry were finally there. God had to do some butt kickin and opening my eyes to a lot of things but as always He did his thing and now im better than ever! I just recently decided......ok yesterday....... that I was going to get back on my vegan kick and start running again every morning. I have learned through my season of when I was vegan I feel so much better physically/emotionally and mentally! And the running it just plat out is fun and releases a lot of stress which i definitely need right now!!! Im not really that stressed right now I just have 1 thing in my head bugging the heck out of me that I cant seem to shake!!~
I am a naturally problem solver/people pleaser!!! This has its ups and downs to it.....But I guess all thing do don't they? Well for me these characteristic traits I carry about myself have come to be somewhat of a bad thing in my life here lately. If conflict arises which in this life it always does because this world is a mess and were not perfect, especially me! :) I am a flat out hard headed pain in the rear end!!! Seriously! But anyways when conflict arises with ANYONE in my life (i don't care if i've known you 5 minutes or 10 years) then I am going to fix it!!!! I have lived my life with WAY to many broken relationships with my family that I refuse to let people just walk away that mean of any significance to me and that I actually love having in my life! So as most of you know specially those who have ever had any kind of conflict with me which is few but far between, then you know I do not go down without a fight and I DO NOT wait to fight for you! This is good because I like fixing things before they just die and never rekindle. But its bad because sometimes I tend to make them worse before they get better! Ugh, frustrates me but its so hard to just let people walk away. My past has a big part to play in why I am this way. I'll share a bit of my story for you to better understand.....
About 6 years ago I dated a guy who I had been with for almost 3 years and this was not a good thing at all! This was a very unstable and unhealthy relationship and before I was a christian obviously! (id hope a few people would smack me if I did that now) Anyways, for probably a year solid this guy would come and go out of my life.....come a few days and then leave a few days, and what did Cecilia do in this time.....sit and wait for those days when he would be back! Literally I just worked and slept!!! Makes me sick to think about but makes me realize also how strong I am because this little woman is still here today and refuses to let ANY man come and go as he pleases! So basically during this time I never knew waking up each day if I would hear from him or if I would spend the whole day hoping I might then be torn apart that night because I never did. I personally hate being ignored more than ANYTHING haha and many of you may be laughing because you know it drives me nuts! It is one thing I WILL NOT deal with! It think its rude and disrespectful and immature and personally I think if ANY person thinks they can just ignore you and then come talk to you when THEY are ready they need to get their head checked because the world doesn't revolve around you!! You should never make someone sit and wait on you when you know its hurting them that things are messed up. Now you can stop and take the time to explain what your thinking and feeling and if your like me you will understand that space is needed BUT never is just ignoring and saying you will ttyl considered respectable! :) This is NOT a fun way to live life! No guy is ever ever worth sitting around and waiting on. It does not matter who he is and what you did wrong never ever waste a moment of your time hoping some guy who doesn't even have enough respect to just say its over or explain what's going on even step foot in your life or mind! Its not worth it. And trust me its not easy I still tend to do it but only for a day or two then I throw up the deuces!!! And this is not just for me but many close friends dealing with the same issue!
Ladies please please hear me out on this!!! All i think of when I think of my past or even the future when it comes to guys is that same little quote I heard a very very long time ago comes dancing around in my head....."No Guy Is Worth Your Tears And The One Who Is Won't Make You Cry"!!! Can I please get a few hundred Amens!!!!! Now crying bc he does something sweet or because your so happy is ok, but because he is mean or hurt you over and over is a bunch of waving red flags!!!!
This can all be hard at times to do because myself and SO many of my close friends are at points where were just sick of having the run around with the wrong guys but because you want so badly to be loved and cherished and taken care of sometimes we tend to settle for the mean ones because 10% of the time they are sweet. Well guess what YOURSELF and ME are way better than that. I found a quote once that I have wrote really big on my kitchen wall and it says "God Knows Best, And He Will Not Be Late"!! So good! We have to remind ourself that in Gods right timing, if we just let Him take control, that He will bring us what we need because no matter what a man can show you about himself only God knows what's really inside his heart! Can I please say that again.....No matter WHAT a guy can show or revile to you about who he is as a person, only God knows what's really inside his heart and knows all the things he will do and become!!! So trust me we want to trust God in this area not the man!!!! So ladies if this guy is not knocking at YOUR door begging for attention from you and sending you sweet messages and just dying to be a part of your life kick him to the curb cause its time to move on!!!!!!! YOU and I are worth Fighting for!!!! ....And thats my soapbox!!!!....we all must "Bow Out Once You Have Given It Your Best" :)
I have a very close friend who wrote me a letter of encouragement because I let a guy who is not even worth my time get the best of me and im gonna share a bit of it with you because i think it not only was written to me but can be for you as well......
"I look at you and I see a woman of God. You are so beautiful. But your beauty is not because of your face or your hair or your perfume or clothes or body. This is not what makes a woman beautiful. No, its your modesty, and your generosity, and joy, and humor. It is your tenderness and your gentle spirit and your sweetness and your child like faith and your respect that makes you beautiful. And it is the gorgeous Jesus living inside you that makes you beautiful. Beauty lies within you and not on you. Women are a mystery. Rob Bell says this and it is so true. He says that women are mysterious and their mystery is to be reveled only to their husbands. There is something within all of you women that makes men go crazy. It makes us do insane things. We fight for you and die for you. We go to war for you. You are a treasure meant to be sought after. You are a mystery waiting to be revealed. The more skin women show the more the mystery is revealed.........:skipping parts of the letter: ....Only your husband can have your touch or your affections or your heart and that is ONLY after he FIGHTS for you. He must show you how much you are worth before he can have you. You are not a trophy to be won but a QUEEN to be fought for and honored. It is your character and integrity that gives you beauty." ......And thats the good part that I believe should be said to all WOMEN. (And side note this guy is not one i dated just been my best friend for a really long time ha-ha no romantic side to all of that pure friendship and encouragement, which has been the one thing that I read over and over because its so true and right!!!)
Its not easy being single but it is a gift from God and once you find that one person you will never alone get to just be God and you!!! ha that makes me never want to get married!!!! Not really but it does cross my mind! :)
Ladies Jesus wants us to learn to love Him as a husband for He loves us as His bride. You are His daughters but at the same time you are His wife. We understand this but cannot fully comprehend it. But you must surrender all your desires for a husband and affections to Him. Be willing to never get married or have a family so that you may love Him more. Do not be confused. We must love God more than we love our dreams to get married and find that ONE perfect guy. Love God with all of your heart, affection, thoughts, trust, desires.....Love Him with your time and dreams. Love Him with your beauty. Love Him with your tears. And show others how to love the same.
Happy Wednesday!!!!!!
I have read SO many books on Women & the Love of God......you think i'd be perfect at this whole thing but I'm not haha im just getting better at realizing things faster (thank God) oppose to letting them get to me for long periods of time. :) So heres a few recommendations. :)
1. "When God Writes Your Love Story" - Eric & Leslie Ludy
2. "Lady In Waiting" - Jackie Kendall & Debby Jones
3. "Beautiful Things Happen When A Woman Trust God" - Sheila Walsh
4. "Kissed The Girls And Made Them Cry" -Lisa Bevere
5. "Captivating" -John & Stasi Eldredge
6. "Inside My Heart" -Robin McGraw
7. "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" -Joshua Harris
Ha-Ha sorry I was gonna put just 3 but these are ALL soo good and if you need more let me know! I have a lot!! Yet somehow still am not perfect at this whole thing!!!! :P
No comments:
Post a Comment